Sometimes there's a person who intentionally leaves our lives, and things change. It could be a bad breakup, a friendship that ends, or the death of a loved one. Sometimes it's a traumatizing event and sometimes it happens slowly over time and you don't realize it until it's over. Either way, things change.
Sometimes you have to let go of a negative influence in your life. It can be so hard but there are times it needs to be done. There are some people who are simply bad for you. Not that they're bad people, but they're bad for you. And if there's someone who drags you down it's okay to let them go.
Sometimes change is for the best. You have to open yourself up to new possibilities and experiences. A few years ago I went through the most heartbreaking thing I've ever known, divorce. At the time I couldn't see past it. It changed everything in my life. It was the darkest time I've ever gone through. Logic told me I wouldn't always feel so horrible but my heart didn't believe I'd ever recover.
Sometimes all you need is time. So I gave myself that. Once I let go of the negative, the depression, the pain, the heartbreak, and I moved on with my life, I found happiness that I never knew existed.
Sometimes life surprises you. Like meeting my husband. I was nowhere close to wanting to date but I was immediately drawn to him. There's just something special about Aaron. I was very upfront with him and told him we wouldn't be anything more than friends. He said he was okay with that and for a while that's all we were. Little did I know, I was falling in love without even realizing it.
Sometimes you just have to trust yourself. I was scared to let Aaron in but my instincts told me it would be worth it. So I trusted. But if I had never gone through the trauma of my past experiences I'd never have met Aaron. I truly know that. I wouldn't be married to this wonderful man and pregnant with my precious daughter. I don't know where I would be, but I wouldn't be here.
With the approaching birth of our daughter I've been reflecting a lot more than usual on just how lucky I am to be where I'm at. No, my life is definitely not perfect. I have trials and troubles like any other person, but I've learned that a positive attitude and a solid foundation of love can get you through so much. I am incredibly grateful for my life, both the good and the bad, because it has made me the person that I am today. And I really like her.